Winda Lupita

Hello again blog, today is kind of jobless, so when i think something and want to express, i will come to you.. 

This time i want to talk about Winda. I forget exactly how long we built this friendship. Yap, she is my all-the-time friend. Although she is weird, but she have something that can boost my mood up, can give good way out when i have a problem. We also can be crazy when we are together, yes, we have ever met twice.

She is so kind, she always gives me strengths. I can talk to her about anything i can't talk to other people. We are like already knew each other for years, although we made this friendship less than 2 years.

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Relate to my current problem, she is the first person i told to. I can't tell to anybody else, include my old bestfriends. And until now, she still boost my mood up, she is so care to me, more than i expected. 

The tears fall when i read her blog about me. I don't know how many times she makes me stronger. So, with my pleasure, i want to thankyou to her. If you can't lend me your shoulder to cry on because we are separated so far, just be there whenever i need you.. :)

Today (again)

Well, this is my 3rd post today. I don't know what happened to me. Every part of my body feels so pain, painful.

It's already 3 days since i got that fck news. Then i become like so dumb because i can't reach you, i can't ask you about the truth. All i got is sadness, getting bigger day by day. How many more days you will contact me?? I need your explanation.. :( :( :( 

Sincerely, broken-hearted-girl.

I'm broken..

Hey blog, i just can not find another friend to talk to. Only you the place where i will tell anything, where no one can read this (i hope).

I've ever read sentence like this, "you didn't just hurt me, you completely destroyed me". Yes, he did. He broke my heart into pieces. He did something i've never imagine before. Why you so immoral? Did i make mistake to you? Why you give me all these sh*t feelings?

But my tears are so priceless right now, i won't cry for something unimportant, even you're important before i know about this. My strength came up from your family, they're so kind, that is why i will forgive you maybe. Stupid? Indeed. I just don't want to change my dream, through this life and reach our dream together, do you remember about that?

I'm trying to be better for everything now, either about my Magister Program or cooking (like what you want). So please, just follow our path we have made before, then make our dream become real..

More than this - One Direction

I’m broken, do you hear me?

I’m blinded, ‘cause you are everything I see,

I’m dancin’ alone, I’m praying,

That your heart will just turn around,

And as I walk up to your door,

My head turns to face the floor,

‘Cause I can’t look you in the eyes and say,

When she opens her arms and holds you close tonight,

It just won’t feel right,

‘Cause I can love you more than this, yeah,

When she lays you down,

I might just die inside,

It just don’t feel right,

‘Cause I can love you more than this,

Can love you more than this

If I’m louder, would you see me?

Would you lay down

In my arms and rescue me?

‘Cause we are the same

You save me,

When you leave it’s gone again,

And then I see you on the street,

In her arms, I get weak,

My body fails, I’m on my knees

Praying..

When she opens her arms and holds you close tonight,

It just won’t feel right,

‘Cause I can love you more than this, yeah,

When she lays you down,

I might just die inside,

It just don’t feel right,

‘Cause I can love you more than this,

Yeah, I’ve never had the words to say,

But now I’m askin’ you to stay

For a little while inside my arms,

And as you close your eyes tonight,

I pray that you will see the light,

That’s shining from the stars above,

When she opens her arms and holds you close tonight,

It just won’t feel right,

‘Cause I can love you more than this......

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Sir, i can love you more than she does. :)

(Sorry for changing some words on the lyrics, hehe)

A boom just exploded right on my face

A Boom just exploded right on my face!

I'm blank right now, do not know what to do, what to talk, my mind is just full of sweet memories (in past)..

Someone who ever been special for you, and not special anymore because he disappointed you a lot. This is second time for me to felt how bastard man who can not be believed at all. Long Distance Relationshit is not as easy for them who can not keep their heart for their mates. Dude, don't you ever think how hurt when you break your girlfriend's heart? This hurt me so much you know. It's more than painful. And one thing, I do agree with this statement "Expectations always hurt".

Thankyou for loved me for this one and half years. I wish I could erase all the memories you've made.