I'm broken..

Hey blog, i just can not find another friend to talk to. Only you the place where i will tell anything, where no one can read this (i hope).

I've ever read sentence like this, "you didn't just hurt me, you completely destroyed me". Yes, he did. He broke my heart into pieces. He did something i've never imagine before. Why you so immoral? Did i make mistake to you? Why you give me all these sh*t feelings?

But my tears are so priceless right now, i won't cry for something unimportant, even you're important before i know about this. My strength came up from your family, they're so kind, that is why i will forgive you maybe. Stupid? Indeed. I just don't want to change my dream, through this life and reach our dream together, do you remember about that?

I'm trying to be better for everything now, either about my Magister Program or cooking (like what you want). So please, just follow our path we have made before, then make our dream become real..

More than this - One Direction

I’m broken, do you hear me?

I’m blinded, ‘cause you are everything I see,

I’m dancin’ alone, I’m praying,

That your heart will just turn around,

And as I walk up to your door,

My head turns to face the floor,

‘Cause I can’t look you in the eyes and say,

When she opens her arms and holds you close tonight,

It just won’t feel right,

‘Cause I can love you more than this, yeah,

When she lays you down,

I might just die inside,

It just don’t feel right,

‘Cause I can love you more than this,

Can love you more than this

If I’m louder, would you see me?

Would you lay down

In my arms and rescue me?

‘Cause we are the same

You save me,

When you leave it’s gone again,

And then I see you on the street,

In her arms, I get weak,

My body fails, I’m on my knees

Praying..

When she opens her arms and holds you close tonight,

It just won’t feel right,

‘Cause I can love you more than this, yeah,

When she lays you down,

I might just die inside,

It just don’t feel right,

‘Cause I can love you more than this,

Yeah, I’ve never had the words to say,

But now I’m askin’ you to stay

For a little while inside my arms,

And as you close your eyes tonight,

I pray that you will see the light,

That’s shining from the stars above,

When she opens her arms and holds you close tonight,

It just won’t feel right,

‘Cause I can love you more than this......

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Sir, i can love you more than she does. :)

(Sorry for changing some words on the lyrics, hehe)

A boom just exploded right on my face

A Boom just exploded right on my face!

I'm blank right now, do not know what to do, what to talk, my mind is just full of sweet memories (in past)..

Someone who ever been special for you, and not special anymore because he disappointed you a lot. This is second time for me to felt how bastard man who can not be believed at all. Long Distance Relationshit is not as easy for them who can not keep their heart for their mates. Dude, don't you ever think how hurt when you break your girlfriend's heart? This hurt me so much you know. It's more than painful. And one thing, I do agree with this statement "Expectations always hurt".

Thankyou for loved me for this one and half years. I wish I could erase all the memories you've made.

Just found ummm...

Sore tadi sehabis nyiapin baju untuk mandi sore, tiba-tiba pengen aja gitu bersihin laci yang di kamar. Dimulai dari laci paling atas, banyak barang-barang yang harus dibuang karna ga penting lagi, ada lah sampe satu kresek besar gitu. Lanjut ke laci kedua, ga begitu banyak barang yang harus dibuang, ada beberapa kardus kecil dan dokumen-dokumen. Di pojokan laci itu, ada semacam kertas di dalam amplop warna pink, aku ambil dan inget itu adalah kertas ucapan ulang tahun, 5 tahun lalu. Kaya gini, 

It was so sweet at that time, bcz I think people nowadays won't use handwriting greeting like this, they prefer to use their gadget than a piece of paper. Terlepas dari itu, kata-katanya sangat meluluh-lantakkan *halah* yang membaca. Do you remember about those words at last part, Sir? However, we have our own life now. Thankyou for the gift and for being my best when we were in past :)

I'm a proud girlfriend

Let me review my holiday several days ago and just had time to write the post now because I got sick after went back home.

July 2, 2013, was his big day and big day for his family too. Beside of Praspa Day, my boyfie also became the reader of Sumpah Perwira in front of Mr. President Susilo Bambang Yudhoyono, how proud I was :)

He is changed, changed to be better. Then he bought a cake for his parent and said that the cake was being bought by used his first salary. I know he is a family man, he loves his family so much.

Oh God lead me to be stronger, long distance relationship is not easy for weak person, and I know that I'm strong enough to pass this phase. I love his family. Please take care of them there.